I'm not gonna lie....my heart has been stinkin' ugly sinful lately.
I don't know when exactly it happened. But sin crept in, took over, and the rest (thank goodness) is NOT history, as I thank God for His incredible grace and mercy as He forgives this wretched sin of mine.
For some reason - just like my 3-yr-old and 1-yr-old - I've been feeling a bit entitled lately. And when I don't get that entitlement, I get downright prideful and pouty.
Sick, isn't it?! Here I am, acting exactly like my two babes who I'm constantly shepherding and teaching to be content, have a happy heart, and glorify God in every circumstance, regardless of the outcome.
I hate to even admit that I've been one step away from becoming "that" mama. You know, the mamas that educators (my family is full of 'em and hubs is one) and anyone who deals with customer service on a daily basis (me! me! me!) strives not to become. The mama who feels like "her child should receive this and this and this and if you don't give it to me I'll find someone who does."
Again I say - sick, isn't it?!
I won't delve into details, but instead dive on my knees. Lord, forgive me - forgive my selfish desires, my prideful heart, and the stinkin' ugly sin that has crept in. May I find conviction through your Word and contentment through your precious promises.
"Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall." - Proverbs 16:18